10/13/2019 @ 9:20pm

Mood: I’m okay

It wasn’t too hard to get up this morning. I can tell I’m still a little sad but I’m getting over everything. So ready to go back to work and start on the stack of work I should have gotten done on Friday. I still can’t believe I let depression win that day and most of my weekend. I was so weak. Unless you know what real depression is then you wouldn’t understand that it’s nearly impossible to win a battle with depression. Unless you can actually make yourself try instead of laying around but sometimes laying around is really the best that you can do. It’s a lot better than hurting yourself. I’m glad I was only in a dark place for almost two days… If you don’t count working out and having temporarily relief. I feel for the people who have to live with this everyday with very little relief. I know I’m bipolar and that is bad enough. But being sick depressed is hard.

I’m going to go to work tomorrow and act like nothing is wrong. I told *** to leave alone on Friday. I really hope he has enough respect for me to listen to what I asked of him.

For those who experience dark depression regularly. Please tell me a little about yourself and what. Are your coping skills

I’m new to the deep sick to my stomach,very dark depression. So I really don’t know how to handle it. I need skills bc if it was this bad over a person. I cannot imagine what it will be like if something really bad happened that involved my Family or fur babies.