10/7/2019 @ 7:32pm

Mood: Good

I went to the gym after work and I feel pretty good. I did eat a bad lunch because I was out in the field all day… But I managed to get one serving of almonds, an apple, and a protein shake in today. I plan on drinking a protein shake for supper so I will meet my 1600 calorie limit for the day. I only talk about this because diet and exercise is so important for your mental health. I would like to document my mood based on what I eat and how much I work out. This stuff might seem pointless to some people but it’s really important to me. I think that I can be a good example for someone who struggles with bipolar. If I dedicate myself to the things that I need to do. I know I talk about this and that and I don’t always do what I say… but I know I will eventually do everything I am suppose to do. Just making the small changes I’ve made so far has really improved my mood. There is no telling what will happen if I follow this plan consistently.

I tried to ignore *** today. It didn’t work out that well. I have to figure out a way to get over this crush because I know I will end up getting hurt. I know that he isn’t interested in me and that he probably just wants one thing from me. He should have feelings for me by now if he liked me at all. I’m not sure why I am so caught up on this because I can’t be with him anyway. I just really can’t stand the thought of him crushing on someone else in the office. I wouldn’t even care if it was someone that didn’t work with us. This is my crazy side showing… which is the reason I’ve been single most of my life. It’s also the reason why I haven’t been on a date in about 6 years. Oh well… what ever is going to happen is going to happen. There is no point in dwelling over this anymore than I already have.


Published by lostinmyhead07

I'm an Engineer who has a severe case of bipolar 1. I'm just trying to stay in control and win this battle with bi polar.

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  1. You are doing really well, my pal…. πŸ‘I will keep giving words of encouragement because I believe you can do this, and you will succeed, it’s not easy to have this awful disease when your trying your very best to lead an outgoing happy life, as I work with bipolar myself…. And as for *** he is just a flirt in my opinion, hold your head high girl… He’ll wonder wants hit him when someone ignores his advances, believe me, and in the end you’ll be the one that’s mended your broken pieces βœŒβ€οΈπŸ˜ƒ

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    1. You always know exactly what to say. Your comments really make me feel good. Yeah he is a flirt and I’m going to try and ignore him. He is a Gemini, I know that will drive him crazy. But I’m not going to do it to drive him crazy, I’m going to do it to protect myself. I am doing good right now. I know I will cycle again but hopefully not for a while. I’ll never be cured but my medication and lifestyle can make things a lot easier.

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  2. It will, one step at a time…. I see the good in people who are trying their very best to be healed, and that’s what I see with you!! No matter how you cycle again… You always try and get back up. Take care β€οΈβœŒπŸ˜ƒ

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