I went to the gym after work and I feel pretty good. I did eat a bad lunch because I was out in the field all day… But I managed to get one serving of almonds, an apple, and a protein shake in today. I plan on drinking a protein shake for supper so I will meet my 1600 calorie limit for the day. I only talk about this because diet and exercise is so important for your mental health. I would like to document my mood based on what I eat and how much I work out. This stuff might seem pointless to some people but it’s really important to me. I think that I can be a good example for someone who struggles with bipolar. If I dedicate myself to the things that I need to do. I know I talk about this and that and I don’t always do what I say… but I know I will eventually do everything I am suppose to do. Just making the small changes I’ve made so far has really improved my mood. There is no telling what will happen if I follow this plan consistently.
I tried to ignore *** today. It didn’t work out that well. I have to figure out a way to get over this crush because I know I will end up getting hurt. I know that he isn’t interested in me and that he probably just wants one thing from me. He should have feelings for me by now if he liked me at all. I’m not sure why I am so caught up on this because I can’t be with him anyway. I just really can’t stand the thought of him crushing on someone else in the office. I wouldn’t even care if it was someone that didn’t work with us. This is my crazy side showing… which is the reason I’ve been single most of my life. It’s also the reason why I haven’t been on a date in about 6 years. Oh well… what ever is going to happen is going to happen. There is no point in dwelling over this anymore than I already have.