Racing thoughts are gone. I’m calmer, more patient, ready to go back to work.
Today has been a good day.
My dad did get loud with me a few times. Only bc he cares. He kind of screamed at me one time bc he misunderstood me. I didn’t let him get to me. He has issues and I just accept him for who he is. I try to at least. He really doesn’t understand what he has done to me throughout my life. He never will. I’m just going to let it go and hope that he wakes up one day and realizes what his words and tone does to me. I know I probably should push him out of my life but I can’t. He is my dad……..
When he did scream at me I didn’t get upset. I just looked at him like he was and crazy and pointed out that he was screaming at me. He was so mad that he said GD. It was because he thought I said that sleeping wasn’t important. I know getting the proper amount of sleep is one of the most important things for my mental health. I get so tired of him talking to me like a child. I realize I am immature and I don’t think I will ever fully ‘grow up’ but I am responsible.
Just writing in my journal. I feel silly for talking about my personal life publicly but hopefully I can look back at these and see my progress.