Mood: I’m not sure. I am anxious, feeling bad about myself, have racing thoughts, restless, impatient….
Obviously I am really sick and I’m not sure if I did it or if I am just naturally cycling. There is a possibility my medication needs to be upped. I talk to my doctor about it today and he raised abilify from 15mg to 22.5mg. I hope to be able to tell a difference in the next few days. My racing thoughts are so bad I am having a hard time focusing or paying attention to anything. I am back to staring off in space lost in my head. It really sucks. It’s affecting my work, driving, paying attention when people are talking to me. My mind is going 100mph and I can’t make it stop. I don’t understand how an ambien or ativan caused this. Is it just a coincidence???
Today was a terrible day. I had a meeting and couldn’t pay attention at all. A guy at work kept picking with me and I am so socially awkward it was so embarrassing. If this is how it’s going to be working in the position I am in . then I don’t want to do it anymore…. If this is how it’s going to be everywhere… I want to work somewhere that I don’t have to interact with anyone. I hate humiliating myself. I’m not fit to interact with people much less try to joke. I say awkward stuff and dwell on it afterwards. I hate my life today.
Does anyone else struggle with interacting with people like I do?
I need someone who I can talk to about this….