Life is so precious. It can dramatically change in a blink of an eye. You’re not promised tomorrow.
Update: I’m not sure if this is something I should even post. I know there are some people who are depressed and never will get better. When I was depressed for 8 months there was no possibility for happiness doing anything. I really hope that this post doesn’t make anyone sad or feel bad about themselves. It was just what I was thinking about at the time.
If you died today would you be satisfied with the life you’ve lived? Or would you wish you had more time? More time to love a little more, hate a little less. More time to become a better person. More time to do those things that you’ve always wanted to do but never did. Would you be remembered as the person you know you are meant to be? Would your heart be filled with love and happiness or would it be empty with a hole in the middle?
There was a time in my life when I wished I would die. I didn’t want to live life anymore. I didn’t care about anything but my own desire to die. But that eventually changed. Always remember you will find your light one day. When you find it life will look a lot different.
If I died today, I would be so sad. There is so much life I have yet to live. So many things that I have missed out on. I honestly feel like I’ve only existed and never truly enjoyed my life. There are so many adventures that I’m meant to take. One of my goals is to find ways to enjoy my life more than I do. I really don’t have a life and I never do anything fun. This is very unhealthy for me. Its hard for me to think of things I can do alone since I don’t really have anyone to enjoy life with. But I did sign up for a line dancing class, I’ve been wanting to start hiking with my dog, I just started reading, I want to start getting into a habit of doing at least one fun thing every week. Even if I have to do them alone. I know there are a lot of activities I can do to meet new people but that really scares me so I’m going to take baby steps.
I also want to work on ways that I can become a better person. I want to grow mentally, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I know I am a great person but everyone has room for growth.