So… Yesterday was very interesting. I had a meeting at 9am and I was 30 minutes late because I went to the wrong location. I’m the type that likes to be at least 10 minutes early. My anxiety took control a little. I just talked my mind out of it instead of taking an ativan.
I did carry on a casual 20 minute conversation with a co-worker. I haven’t done this in years. Abilify and lifestyle changes has really changed my life.
The rest of my day…
I am helping my little cousin with homeschool and she was being a little stubborn and mean yesterday. She is bipolar too. She yelled at me a couple times and I was able to stop and think before I responded. I was irritated at first. I wanted to yell back but I talked myself out of it. I told myself she is just like me and really needs a sweet toned voice to help her get through this moment. So I did and her attitude changed instantly. She didn’t want to read last night but when I left she got mad and called me a jerk because I didn’t read with her. I missed it but she has to learn that she is on my schedule not the other way around. I texted her this morning and told her that I missed reading with her last night and that I loved her. Hopefully she will do better today.
It’s amazing how well I am doing. I wasn’t depressed at all this morning. It felt really good. Considering I was sick to my stomach depressed for 8 months straight during the end of last year and the beginning of this year. Any day I don’t wake up depressed is truly a blessing.
I hope to have another good day today.