I know I suck at blogging but I wanted to give an update on how I’ve been doing. I started taking abilify a week and a half ago. Things seem to be a lot better. My racing thoughts aren’t like they use to be. But I haven’t been sleeping good this week bc one of the side effects is insomnia. So… I’ve been manic all week. Scary. I am going to take some melatonin in addition to ambien tonight. TGIF tomorrow. I know I will be catching up on some sleep. I have so much stuff I want to get done this weekend too. Bipolar is very difficult but it is very manageable if you understand it and know yourself well enough. I analyze myself all the time. This week I have been hyper, very talkative, argumentative, talking super fast, having all of these grand plans that I won’t do, irritable… Wide open y’all. So worried about how my cycle is going to end. Hopefully I won’t be too depressed. I am in the middle of dosing off of lithium also. Don’t ever do that without your doctor’s consent. You could mess your brain up like mine by inducing a pychosis from coming off your medication too fast. And especially don’t ever do it if you have ever had a pychosis. Just talk to your doctor. At this point I wish I never took medication to start with but then I look at my mom and dad who are unmediated and I change my mind real quick. Mainly bc I see what they go through and I feel how they take there bad moods out on everyone that loves them. Medication really has helped with both of those things.