7/31/2019 (10am)

Today is a bad day. Right now I am thinking one of my co-workers is out to get me. Meaning letting me fail and doing things that purposely piss me off. She knows everything about me. I just opened up to her and told her way too much. That’s one thing I should know better by now. If the wrong person finds out about my mental illness, I will be fired. I have got irritated with everyone I work with… This medication isn’t working. My bipolar had gotten so much worse since my last psychotic break in 2018. I honestly think she is out to get me and it makes me hate her. I cannot stop myself from feeling this way. Every little thing she does I think it’s directed towards me. 1/2 of me knows it probably isn’t like what I think but the other 1/2 swears up and down that it is. It’s just the crazy side of me that is screaming louder than my normal side. I just want to escape my body. No one understands unless they are living in the same kind of hell I am. Ahhhhh!

Published by lostinmyhead07

I'm an Engineer who has a severe case of bipolar 1. I'm just trying to stay in control and win this battle with bi polar.

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